...All Thanks To Kermit The Frog <3

Hi! I've been away for weeks now, I know. But I've been so busy with school, and trying to get over this....guy....that when i'm not up to my EARS in homework, I'm gettin that mood indigo and a bad migrane. A bad...BAD....migraine. I still have it. I wish it'd leave me the hell alone!

Gah. So anyway, what kinda got my spirits raised a bit, was an old song from my childhood. Also, quite possibly it was from my mothers childhood as well! haha. It's that old little tune, that kermit the frog sings called "It's Not That Easy Being Green"....

I know, you're lost, but let me explain....

Something about that song, and well, most of those old muppet/sesame street tunes touches me, because i think i reminds me of a better time in my life. I was young, and innocent, without the weight of the WORLD on my shoulders. And the lyrics still kind of touch me.

To me, the song is about realizing that you are beautiful just the way you are. Now, while I may not be green, at all, actually, I am and 18 year old who doesn't quite feel so ....comfortable in her skin yet. Often times, I look at myself, and don't see anything special about who I am. Of course, I also nitpik about EVERYTHING....

"Ohh, my butt could be bigger."

"Ohh, my skin could be clearer"

"My tummy could be flatter"

"My hair could be straighter...and longer"

"My thighs could be more toned"

"My face could be....cuter"

The list goes on and on and on. The sad thing is, I could sit there and pick out a million-and-one things that absolutely REPULSE me about myself......

But why?

What's the point in being my number 1 hater? Is that going to change anything?

Nope.

So, instead, I took some of Kermit's good advice. After listing all the things he dislikes about being green....he goes on to realize that those same things, are the qualities that make his green-ness beautiful. So....I tried doing the same thing. Some of the same things that I hated about myself, were what made me...well, ME!

Without those things, I would be just like the rest of those girls in the world with the big booty's and the long hair, and trophy figure.

And, well, that's what makes me beautiful just the way I am. I'm natural, with women curves, and shoulder legnth curls, and a cute smile.

Also, I've come to realize that not everything that I have to offer this world, is PHYSICAL.

I think I'm a great person as well.
And basically, when you come to this realization, you see that theres no use in complaining when YOU are the only YOU that you will EVER be....

Kermit says, at the end...."When green is all there is to be, it could make you wonder why....but why wonder why...wonder why? I'm Green, and it'll do just fine...IT'S BEAUTIFUL and I think it's what I want to be..."

It's true. Every last word of it. I'm me, and I'm the only person that I will ever ever be in this LIFE....so....why not love myself for my good traits rather than my nasty flaws?

I love myself. And sometimes, we need a little bit of assurance in order to do this. It's natural, especially as females, for us to get a little hung up over our physical appearance, and this is fine, as long as we're not hung up over ours tiny imperfections, which, in turn, make us beautifully UNIQUE?!

I let my puzzle peices of self confidence fall apart when AMAZING GUY or (not so) AMAZING GUY....(who used to put the puzzle together with his cute little "you're so beautiful" and "sexy" compliments) kinda...left me hanging.

But we can't count on other people to help us love, OURSELVES, and it took me too long to realize this....

Actually, all it took was a little reminder from my Muppet friend Kermit.

Who says I'm too old to watch Sesame Street anyway?!