Lately, knowing him, is like finding out that your favorite superhero is really just some overweight guy getting paid 6 dollars an hour, to wear a girdle and tights....
What I mean is, lately, he seems to be proving that he's not as Amazing as I thought he was.
He's turning into just another..............GUY
Which I don't like too much. Not that my opinion matters or anything, but....
When you put someone on a pedestool the way I did with him, and they prove to be undeserving of it, you feel played.
So....I feel played.
I had hoped that he wouldn't leave me with this awful empty feeling that I usually get after ending things like this but.....he did. Maybe unintentionally. And I hate to say this, but I can't be his friend anymore either. Not right away at least......it's too hard.....
I can't really say much more on it except that I'm going on hiatus from him for a while. I need to collect my thoughts and get back to caring about me, and only me. I'll talk to him again.......eventually. But right now, me blowing his phone up because I miss him is not cute.
So I need to stop.
Sometimes, you need to seperate yourself from people for a while to be able to deal with them again. Especially when it comes to ex-flames, boyfriends, and even ex husbands, haha.
Still, the situation sucks....
I wonder if he knows I cared this much??
I sure hope not.......
"My love where did we go wrong
I wonder whos in your arms,
Especially because you did me wrong.
You know sad songs
Are the best songs
You dont have to wonder how its gonna end...."
- Melanie Fiona, "Sad Songs"
Ohh, goodmorning and goodnight heartache.....
Til Next Timee, hopefully when I'm feeling less rant-ey!
Peace, Love && Good Breakup Songzz!
<3
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