Relationships With Friendss.... :)

Good friends are hard to find.
No, what am I saying? They're damn near impossible to find.
Which is why when we get them, we hold them near to our hearts for dear life.
But what happens when having that person as a friend becomes more of a chore than a pleasure?
I hate to admit it, I really do, but these are the times in life when we have to asses our relationships with people. I know, I'm the in the process of doing that. I just recently came home from summer term at FIU, and met up with some friends who I hadn't seen since I left Philly. I was excited, to say the least. I expected things to fall right back into place, and for me and my friends to go back to the way we had been.
But see, that's the thing.
My friends and I did the exact same things we did before I left for school.
Now, I know that sounds weird, because that's exactly what I wanted, but looking at it now, it's what I thought I wanted. I thought I wanted to come home to a city that hadn't changed a bit since I left it, but I hadn't factored in that maybe....I would change.
I'm not to keen on facing change, but it was obvious that I had, because I wasn't laughing at the same old jokes we would tell, nor was I getting a kick out of sitting in my friend's room talking about the same damn things. The writing was on the wall. I had matured, but they hadn't.
Suddenly, I felt like I had outgrown my favorite pair of jeans, and switched them for a pair of Banana Republic slacks or something. Needless to say, I felt way out of place.
I think they felt it too.
So, all in all, though it took me a while to accept it, I realized that they would always be my "favorite pairs of jeans" and I'll always remember them, but maybe it was time to part ways for a little bit, at least until they grew into some Banana Republic slacks as well.
That sounds so funny to say, but I want to focus on moving forward, which I think we all know, is impossible to do if we have people pulling us backwards.
My friends are the best people I know, but I'm thinking that me being so far away from them sometimes is the best thing for me right now, that way I don't feel pulled in the wrong direction all the time.
And they don't have to feel inadequate.
Sometimes, that's what you have to do, in order to get yourself together.
It sucks. But so does growing up.
Til nextt timee...........................
Peace, Love && the pursuitt of happiness :)